Transit
Posted by CJ in My World, TP-Productions, Work on 10/10/2009
Hey guys (and girls), I know its been a while again since I post another “meaningful” blog entry. Like usually I’m too busy or maybe too lazy too… Who can I blame for that? 
Anyway lets catch up shall we? As you know I’m moving the old blog to this one. Everything goes well, I just need time to do it. I think it should be done by next year .
Lets get more serious now, currently I’m some kind of transit period of my life. I’ve 2 options and none of the 2 options is really workable at the moment. Friend and family knows what the options are and I’m not really in the mood to write it all down again. Lets say that I’m a little stuck right now. But in the meantime while I wait I’ve been doing some projects. The biggest one is MCE 2009 (Miss China Europe 2009). I’ve been part of the film crew since a couple months now. Like I told in previous posts, they have asked me to join and film the whole thing till the finals at 14th December 2009 in Den Haag (Netherlands). Yes you guess it right, I’ve been driving to Netherlands multiple times now.
The coolest thing is that I have to make the introduction movies for the 12 finalists, a short intro for the final show itself and this will be showed to 1500-2000 people in the theater and in 48 countries LIVE by satellite!
This is just so awesome! The idea that people will see your work for the first time on TV in 48 countries, is incredible and could only be in your dreams. But its not a dream, its real xD.
Download this episode in HD quality HERE (WMV, 318MB)
Visit http://www.misschinaeurope.com for more information about the pageant.
You can contact us at: info [a] tpproductions.be
Produced by TP-Productions and AsianNetworks, commissioned by Miss China Europe 2009.
A couple days my mom’s house was broke into, so I’ve also been doing little works for her to get her feeling more comfortable by installing and looking for alarm systems, CCTV and other things. Only money and jewelery were stolen. The thief’s picked a day were the police didn’t had enough people on the streets due to the a demonstration at the European Council HQ. So multiple houses has been broken into in the area that day.
Last night I though I was dreaming when I saw her coming online since ages. And that made me a little :s again. I still don’t know how the thing are between us. She knows how I feel for her. But…
Ahhhhhh “miserie miserie zucht”
Anyway I’m going to get ready to get out. Going to drive a big big big van/truck for the first time today because mom wants to buy fences for her house at Makro. I hope I’ll make it back in one piece
Have nice Saturday guys!
Because You Love Me
Posted by CJ in Music, Songs/Lyrics, Video on 10/10/2009
Because You Love Me
By Clay Aiken
[originally performed by Celine Dion]
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful baby
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I’m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don’t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me
New blog
Currently I’m moving the blog entries of my old blog to this one. Because the incompatible software I’ll have to re-enter all the 199 blog entries that I ever made manually into this one… so its going to take some time before its all done. But in the meantime enjoy my new blog 
Feel
Posted by CJ in Songs/Lyrics on 04/09/2009
Marie Digby – Feel
wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mari%C3%A9_Digby
Feels like I spent all this time talking to walls
Feels like I gotta let go of the way it was before
Are your really there? Are you made of stone?
Am I talking to someone or am I here all alone
Chorus]
Are you alive, don’t you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you’re here, show me your tears
Don’t your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it’’s too late
Are you alive, show me you’re human
Can’t you feel, feel, feel, feel?
Seems like you”re stuck in a daze, slipping away, away
I’m sick of trying to reach you, can’t you say what’s on your mind
Baby we’re losing the race to far behind, behind
Tell me that I’m not the only one who can try, who can fight the wall
Chorus]
Are you alive, don’t you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you’re here, show me your tears
Don’t your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it’s too late
Are you alive, show me you”re human
Can’t you feel, feel, feel, feel?
Sometimes the words they don’t get through
What really speaks is what you do
Open up, let me inside, just wanna find you
Chorus]
Are you alive, are you, are you?
Show me you’re here, show me your tears
Don’t your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it’s too late
Are you alive, show me you”re human
Can’t you feel, feel, feel, feel?
Whoa, wake up, are you dead?
Preview: Marie Digby – Feel
Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KgBQvfm1YPM
Zshare: http://www.zshare.net/audio/613250406156e33f/
Ohaiyo! (Good morning in Japanese)
Ok fine, its good evening, happy now? I just can’t believe its been four months between another new entry. I really should be ashame to say that xD.
Anyway I’m back, well don’t know for how long, but I’ll stay here as long as possible.
So what has happened in these four months. Hmm good question actually, because I can’t figure it out what really happened.
Lets see, in March I did a job for MyMIA TV at Brussels Expo which was awesome and fun! I love working with Renée and Susan as hosts. Just two lovely young ladies, But of course a lot of work for just one guy.
Around the Eastern vacation I did my Solo/end work for this year at a hotel in Brussels. I did a lot of preparation to got this working. Looking for filming equipment, cast, location, … Luckily I had full support from friends, family and her. Her… who is her actually? Well figure it out yourself. You can see the result on my Facebook page.
The same week I also helped a colleague with his end work in Antwerp. That was just wicked and fun too! My dear friend and colleague Wesley did a superb job with the photoshoot.
Oh there was that new year’s party thingy I had to go, but I didn’t because I had something to do.
Ok getting dry now… Let me think… oh right exams, yeah, we can’t forget that. Yesterday I did my last one, we’ll just have to wait for the results. I don’t know what the outcome might be, but whatever it is. Keep thinking and looking positive, that’s the spirit 
Also I heard from a friend that I’ve been selected for a job in the Netherlands for a week. Filming backstage for MCE, the whole week. I’m looking forward to it, getting paid, staying in a hotel for a week, playing with film equipments, what can I guy ask for more? Hmm well maybe some companion or help during that week… Sigh
Hmm right now I kinda feel a (little) down 
, I just lost a friend, well not really lost like died or something. Its just we’ve decided we’re not going to see or contact each other anymore due to… well due to (a) reason(’s).
I can hear you thinking like… what the hell, why on earth would you do that? If that friend meant that much too you, why would you even do that?
Well my friend, like I said, due to (a) reason(’s). Its the best solution for the problem. Though its me that made the decision, I’m still not sure if it was the right one. Do I regret it? I’m starting to think I do, but what’s done is done and we cant go back, can we?
And yes, its hurts, not only because “that reason” but also because losing a friend is never pleasant, especially when you know that person for more than 9 years.
If I could turn the time back I just wouldn’t say a thing and really pretend that nothing happened, just to keep this or well… its passed … that relation, that friendship, that…. sigh.
Its true what they say, people comes and goes, how much it hurts, there is nothing you can do about it, you just have to live with it.
If any chances you might read this, sorry to cause you all those sleepless nights the past week(s). You’ll always be one of those great and awesome people I met in my life. Though the purpose of this solution is to forget.
Lol Kelly Clarkson’s songs just suits in this kind of situation.
*Listening to Kelly Clarkson’s Album Break Away*
Anyway, exams are done, summer is coming, party time? I really want to go somewhere, I want to explore, I want to be free, careless, going with the flow… Hmm backpacking sounds great I think.
So that’s it for tonight, I’ll keep you posted when I feel like in posting a new entry here. I know I know, I should post more often. I just don’t have that will anymore to post every week. Sorry …
Eternally
Posted by CJ in My World, Songs/Lyrics on 11/02/2009
I know i know. I have disappeared again. I have gotten lazier and plus, college and freelancing has been quite overwhelming lately. So I am here taking a break, well a short break it is. The past weeks were really full of new challenges. I”m currently working on a freelance project for MyMIA TV. And I can see the results are good. Can”t wait for the feedbacks, I just love feedback from people. It gives me more strength and confidence to make new works and to accept new challenges. Even though it’’s not easy to concentrate myself lately. I”ve been thinking of that one person that I met 2 years ago. I wonder how she is doing right now., what she’’s doing and if she still think the same… as before…How much I like and love her, there is just one thing I hate about her, she goes and comes when it suits her. I just don”t know what to think of this. Should I try to continue with it or should I just leave it like it is now? Even though we”ve had those times together? Hmm 
I like to post a new song, this song is by http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hikaru_Utada from her album Distance. It’’s not a new one, but the remix for the Jdrama Innocent Love starring Maki Horikita is just so sweet.
Eternally
me no maeni iru kimi ga sukoshi kagayaki
mawari ga mienai
watashi-tachi wa doko ni iru no
In front of me, you start emitting lights
and I can’t see.
Where are we?
zawameki hajimeta haikei no nakani
mada kienai da ne
mou nani mo kikoenai
But I can feel your breath
Among the noisy landscape,
don’t disappear yet.
I can’t hear anymore.
But I can feel your breath
odoroku hodo kimagurena tenkai ni sukoshi dake
watashi rashi kunai kitai o, oh oh shiteru
Due to this surprising outcome,
oh oh I still hope.
I wanna be here eternally
kono mama mitsume aetteitai
I can feel you close to me
itsumademo sobani wa irarenai
kono shunkan dake wa zutto eien ni
I wanna be here eternally
Like this, I want to stare.
I can feel you close to me
I can’t be without forever.
Make this moment eternity.
tatakai ni dekakeru maeno hito yasumi
anata to sugoshitai
yakusoku wa kondo aeta toki ni
Can you hear me breath?
A break before this battle.
I want to spend my time with you.
The promise is next time we meet.
Can you hear me breath?
odoroku hodo dewanai tenkai ni mo
kandou shichau toki ga dare ni datte, oh oh aru
Even the unsurprising outcome,
oh oh everyone sometimes will be touched.
I wanna be here eternally
dare ni mo mitsukaranai tokoro ni
I can see you are all I need
ashita made tasuke wa iranai
kono shunkan sae mo kitto just a fantasy
I wanna be here eternally
At the place where no one can see us.
I can see you are all I need
Untile tommorrow, I don’t need help
maybe, this moment is just a fantasy
I can feel you close to me
ano basho ni kaere nakunatte mo
ima no kimochi dake wa zutto eien
I can feel you close to me
Even if I can’t go back to that place,
this feeling is eternity
I wanna be here eternally
I can see you are all I need
kono shunkan dake wa eien ni
I wanna be here eternally
I can see you are all I need
At least this feeling is eternity
MP3: Link
The newer version of Eternally is done to give a more sad and melancholic mood which suits the show well. Hence, this newer version in my opinion is better. I didn’t really pay attention to this song previously but after looking at the lyrics…it’s quite touching no?
I’m listening to it right now as we speak. It’s giving me a sad feeling, but not the sad sad feeling you know? But the kind of happy sad feeling. It brings me back to the past again when she was around. I think I’m just missing her too much. Where are you now girl? Give me a sign, please.
Mijn praktijk2 is juist begonnen. Groep 44, helemaal de laatste groep. Vandaag moesten we ons statement gaan indienen bij 3 docenten. We moeten een documentaire maken van max 3min lang met een groepje van 3 studenten, dus 1 voor geluid, 1 voor beeld en 1 voor montage. The last one is me. Montage dus…. yep… Dit jaar moet ik eigenlijk 2 documentaires maken, dus ook eentje voor mijn eindwerk/solo.
Ik heb eigenlijk nog geen flauw idee wat ik voor mijn solo ga doen. Maar ik moet het wel mijn statement indienen begin maart.
Oh we gaan ook op kijkstage bij Alfacam. Wereld eerste die in HD opneemt, de grootste studio’s in Europa,… Alfacam biedt zo veel potentie voor studenten zoals wij. Ik hoop dat ik daar ooit mag beginnen. En natuurlijk mijn doel is mijn eigen Productiehuis te starten… That’s what TP-Productions stands for, isn’t it 
Sinds kort ga ik terug om met Heidi, neen neen, we hebben geen ruzie gehad ofzo… we zijn elkaar gewoon wat uit het oog verloren. Heidi zat vroeger bij mij in de klas. We hadden zoveel plezier toen en ook al stond ze al een tijdje in mijn msn lijst… we hebben nog niet echt veel gesproken tot kort… We gaan naar de bioscoop, uiteten, etc… fun maken eigenlijk, missed the things back then. Zorgeloos, fun, vrij, gewoon kind zijn… neen? Wat bepaalde gebeurtenissen in een leven je zoveel kan veranderen… het maakt wie je vandaag bent… Mja begin een beetje uit te wijken
“I can see you are all I need
ashita made tasuke wa iranai
kono shunkan sae mo kitto just a fantasy”
Juist terug van Brussel
Ik ben juist terug van Brussel, man ik ben bekaf. Ik zen maar pas om 4u gaan slapen gisteren en ik moest al om 9u op om mij klaar te maken naar Brussel. Ma heb wel centjes gekregen voor mijn werk. Yep ik doe nu en dan zo freelance werk voor mensen. Dus als ge mij nodig hebt, stuur maar is ne mailke ofzo. Ik ga sebiet maffe se eerst nog is zien hoe het met de site en server zit. Ale manne sweet dreamskes voor seffes en tot merge. Oh ja morgen staan we op de Kerstmarkt van Opwijk voor onze Mini Onderneming. Kom gerust is langs zou’k zeggen 
Eerste bericht
Dit is mijn eerste bericht ooit op deze blog xD