I know i know. I have disappeared again. I have gotten lazier and plus, college and freelancing has been quite overwhelming lately. So I am here taking a break, well a short break it is. The past weeks were really full of new challenges. I”m currently working on a freelance project for MyMIA TV. And I can see the results are good. Can”t wait for the feedbacks, I just love feedback from people. It gives me more strength and confidence to make new works and to accept new challenges. Even though it’’s not easy to concentrate myself lately. I”ve been thinking of that one person that I met 2 years ago. I wonder how she is doing right now., what she’’s doing and if she still think the same… as before…How much I like and love her, there is just one thing I hate about her, she goes and comes when it suits her. I just don”t know what to think of this. Should I try to continue with it or should I just leave it like it is now? Even though we”ve had those times together? Hmm

I like to post a new song, this song is by http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hikaru_Utada from her album Distance. It’’s not a new one, but the remix for the Jdrama Innocent Love starring Maki Horikita is just so sweet.

Eternally

me no maeni iru kimi ga sukoshi kagayaki
mawari ga mienai
watashi-tachi wa doko ni iru no
In front of me, you start emitting lights
and I can’t see.
Where are we?

zawameki hajimeta haikei no nakani
mada kienai da ne
mou nani mo kikoenai
But I can feel your breath
Among the noisy landscape,
don’t disappear yet.
I can’t hear anymore.
But I can feel your breath

odoroku hodo kimagurena tenkai ni sukoshi dake
watashi rashi kunai kitai o, oh oh shiteru
Due to this surprising outcome,
oh oh I still hope.

I wanna be here eternally
kono mama mitsume aetteitai
I can feel you close to me
itsumademo sobani wa irarenai
kono shunkan dake wa zutto eien ni
I wanna be here eternally
Like this, I want to stare.
I can feel you close to me
I can’t be without forever.
Make this moment eternity.

tatakai ni dekakeru maeno hito yasumi
anata to sugoshitai
yakusoku wa kondo aeta toki ni
Can you hear me breath?
A break before this battle.
I want to spend my time with you.
The promise is next time we meet.
Can you hear me breath?

odoroku hodo dewanai tenkai ni mo
kandou shichau toki ga dare ni datte, oh oh aru
Even the unsurprising outcome,
oh oh everyone sometimes will be touched.

I wanna be here eternally
dare ni mo mitsukaranai tokoro ni
I can see you are all I need
ashita made tasuke wa iranai
kono shunkan sae mo kitto just a fantasy
I wanna be here eternally
At the place where no one can see us.
I can see you are all I need
Untile tommorrow, I don’t need help
maybe, this moment is just a fantasy

I can feel you close to me
ano basho ni kaere nakunatte mo
ima no kimochi dake wa zutto eien
I can feel you close to me
Even if I can’t go back to that place,
this feeling is eternity

I wanna be here eternally
I can see you are all I need
kono shunkan dake wa eien ni
I wanna be here eternally
I can see you are all I need
At least this feeling is eternity

MP3: Link

The newer version of Eternally is done to give a more sad and melancholic mood which suits the show well. Hence, this newer version in my opinion is better. I didn’t really pay attention to this song previously but after looking at the lyrics…it’s quite touching no?
I’m listening to it right now as we speak. It’s giving me a sad feeling, but not the sad sad feeling you know? But the kind of happy sad feeling. It brings me back to the past again when she was around. I think I’m just missing her too much. Where are you now girl? Give me a sign, please.

Mijn praktijk2 is juist begonnen. Groep 44, helemaal de laatste groep. Vandaag moesten we ons statement gaan indienen bij 3 docenten. We moeten een documentaire maken van max 3min lang met een groepje van 3 studenten, dus 1 voor geluid, 1 voor beeld en 1 voor montage. The last one is me. Montage dus…. yep… Dit jaar moet ik eigenlijk 2 documentaires maken, dus ook eentje voor mijn eindwerk/solo.
Ik heb eigenlijk nog geen flauw idee wat ik voor mijn solo ga doen. Maar ik moet het wel mijn statement indienen begin maart.
Oh we gaan ook op kijkstage bij Alfacam. Wereld eerste die in HD opneemt, de grootste studio’s in Europa,… Alfacam biedt zo veel potentie voor studenten zoals wij. Ik hoop dat ik daar ooit mag beginnen. En natuurlijk mijn doel is mijn eigen Productiehuis te starten… That’s what TP-Productions stands for, isn’t it

Sinds kort ga ik terug om met Heidi, neen neen, we hebben geen ruzie gehad ofzo… we zijn elkaar gewoon wat uit het oog verloren. Heidi zat vroeger bij mij in de klas. We hadden zoveel plezier toen en ook al stond ze al een tijdje in mijn msn lijst… we hebben nog niet echt veel gesproken tot kort… We gaan naar de bioscoop, uiteten, etc… fun maken eigenlijk, missed the things back then. Zorgeloos, fun, vrij, gewoon kind zijn… neen? Wat bepaalde gebeurtenissen in een leven je zoveel kan veranderen… het maakt wie je vandaag bent… Mja begin een beetje uit te wijken

“I can see you are all I need
ashita made tasuke wa iranai
kono shunkan sae mo kitto just a fantasy”